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My boyfriend went back to England today, and I miss him too much to be able to handle it. After a month with him, now: almost a month without him.

Time to go back to Skype for a while. Skype, that 4 weeks ago felt like the best way to communicate. Tonight, it was a difficult thing. To see him on a screen. Weird.



I love him, very much.

Fall is here, hear the yell
Back to school, ring the bell
Brand new shoes, walking blues
Climb the fence, books and pens
I can tell that we are going to be friends

I've bought Dr. Martens. Yes, I have! Ever since January, when I realised I wanted a pair, I've been thinking and dreaming. I didn't bother to go to Gothenburg to buy them, and I couldn't find them anywhere in Varberg. But now, one of the shoe stores got them! So me and my mum went there today, and I bought dark blue ones. I am sure that I've never bought a pair of shoes that quick before. I tried them on and bought them!

Happy!



And also. A fur collar in dark blue and a black hat from my fav vintage shop in Varberg!

This is the closest thing to crazy I have ever known,
I was never crazy on my own.
And now I know that there's a link between the two,
being close to craziness and being close to you.


I'll admit I can't explain why I feel how I do,
So you must have cast a spell,
That's why my life feels new.


I have become spellbound,
You lifted me up high,
Now I don't know how to get down.

My brother Samuel told me about this song a few weeks ago, and said he thought about me every time he listens to it. I looked it up, and I really like it! Thanks for recommending it, Samuel! :)

I started my new job yesterday! Three days of planning this week, before the students come back on Monday. That's when the real thing starts. I'll be working as a student's assistant and helping out with a group of children who need extra help. It will be nice, inspiring and challenging to start a new job, and I'll hopefully know if I want to study the teacher program next year, or not. Maybe I'll go for the psychology program, if I'm accepted next year.

So, I'm quite tired these days, seeing as I'm not used to getting up early. It's really good to have started working again tho, to have something to do during the days!

When I'm not working, I'm spending most of my time with James. He'll be here for another 1,5 weeks, and after that, we'll start going back and forth to visit each other. I booked the first two flights yesterday! :)

Well, that was a short update about what's happening!

Yesterday, my family (except for 2) gathered to eat crayfish, a Swedish tradition that we have every year in August! I have to admit that it turned out to be one of the best evenings ever! Karin's brother Daniel and his friend Santosh also came. Really nice company! With the kids included, we were 19 people!



And tonight, me and James will go to a restaurant and then to the cinema! :)

It started out as an awful morning, in several ways. You know, it was that kind of day that you just want to sleep through, because you know you'll just want it to end as soon as possible anyway. A day starting with a bad feeling.

So, I was standing there, in the bathroom, unwillingly doing my hair and my make-up, getting ready for work, when this picture came to my mind. A tree. A thin, weak tree. With no leaves, and no branches. It didn't seem like a very strong tree at all, from what I could see.

But the roots were strong and fresh. The roots, the life of the tree. Big and living.

And as I saw this picture, I saw myself in it.

Have you ever heard of being faith challenged as a Christian? If not, listen now: There are times when you meet people or circumstances in where you feel your faith is being challenged. You're suddenly in the middle of discussions, arguments, people questioning your beliefs, or just a situation where you need to explain the simple fact that you believe in God, where you need to stand up for what you believe. It's hard, but it's good. It strengthens you and draws you closer to God.

I am not going to tell you in what way I felt challenged in my faith, but in my prayer this morning, in the bathroom, I felt my roots. My roots are found in God. Strong and fresh. It was such an amazing feeling. It was like God said to me: "It doesn't matter how weak you seem, how sad or depressed things will make you, because you have strong and fresh roots, planted by me, in me."

Wow. This is my God.

If you want, listen this song that I thought about while writing this.

My friend Rahel from Switzerland came to visit me from Tuesday to Thursday. We went to the sea, had fika, went tea testing at my sister-in-law Karin's place and walked around in Varberg - in the shops and by the sea!

Tuesday




Photo: Maja



Wednesday

Almost managed to do a bow in my hair today. I need a lot more practice tho!

Yesterday, I went to my first Håkan Hellström concert. I've only liked him for a year, before that, I didn't like him at all. A year ago, I couldn't believe this hysteria around him. I'm not saying that I understand it now either, but I do like his lyrics. He really has the ability to write songs.



We met Cecilia, Fanny and David before the concert!





Despite that my back and legs hurt because of the many hours just standing, waiting, Håkan was really good live. So enthusiastic, so energetic, and the audience was crazy and knew every song. It was like a big party! He didn't play my real favourites tho, but some that I really like. All of his songs were so much better live, and I got some new favourites because of that.

Great eve!

Happiness. Real happiness. This joy. And you should know that while I'm saying this, I have fever and a very sore throat. Still, I'm so happy. Isn't it wonderful?

My plans, as soon as I'm feeling better, are to continue working, going to the Håkan Hellström concert on Friday, and... hopefully, to let my friend Rahel from Switzerland stay here for a few days next week! I really hope she will. Would be great!

I'd love to upload some pictures here now, but our network is really slow at the moment, and I just can't. It will be fixed soon though!

Will be back soon with pictures!

I am so sorry I haven't updated my blog recently. I seriously don't have much to say. I'm working almost everyday, and when I'm not, I'm enjoying the sunshine! Hope to upload some photos soon, or tell something interesting! :)

I just need to watch '500 days of Summer' again, soon.

Joseph Gordon-Levitt and Zooey Deschanel.

What's happening?

I started to work in the shop last week, and I'm now working full days. It's good to get some routines, but this annoying cold I've got makes everything harder. I'm coughing, snuffling and have less energy than usual. But hopefully I'll get better soon.

I'm still alone at home, but I have to admit that I don't really enjoy it anymore. I'm running out of ideas for what to cook for one person, and I'm rather lonely to be honest. I'm looking forward to Saturday, when mum and dad will be home again and everything will be back to normal!

When I get some energy back, I'll sit down and pick out which photos from England to develop and put in an album. It'll be fun to look through the photos again. Remember everything with joy! :)

I think I need fresh air and some cold home made elderflower cordial now!

Bye for now!